Why I Became a Life Coach: A Personal Confession

This is a note I wrote late at night, when I was feeling really emotional, about my journey to becoming a life coach. Honestly, it feels a little uncomfortable to share it publicly, but I’m doing it because I believe there might be someone out there who needs to hear it. If you've ever felt scared, played small, and felt disappointed in yourself for it, you might resonate with my story.

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I wasn't valued by my parents and teachers.

I was scolded if I share my thoughts that are not aligned with their values.

But, I didn't like the values they insisted I should have.

So, I started to hide.

I sat in a dark space, built fences around it, so nobody could find my true self and hurt me.

I doubted myself, wondering if there's something wrong with me.

And I hated myself for feeling this way.

I decided to try doing what I wanted.

Because if I fail, I will have to do what they want me to do anyways. I had nothing to lose.

My trials worked sometimes. I got a PhD, got married and have a son, landed a good job.

Through all these success, I kept this part of myself hidden.

I was ashamed of it. I wanted to deny it existed.

And almost forgot about it.

Then one day, it came back and it hurt.. so much. I even cried in front of colleagues.

For the first time in my life, I shared this with another soul. And he still loved me.

This gave me the courage to seek resources that could help me.

I opened up to a few of my closest friends, and they empathized with me. They shared their own dark and deep secrets.

Now, I could share this with public. I was not ashamed of this part of me anymore.

Instead, I felt proud of my journey, for the first time.

And my life has changed, permanently.

In the beginning, I spent all my time alone in that dark space, scared.

Now, I spend a lot more times in the proud space. But still, I visit the dark place sometimes.

Most of the times, I feel hopeful and I see opportunities and possibilities.

I feel powerful and courageous.

I feel resourceful and creative. I know I will figure things out.

But still, sometimes, I crawl back into the dark space behind the fence.

I doubt my capability.

I am scared of the shame I will feel when I fail.

I end up playing small.

And I feel disappointed in myself for feeling this way.. again.

I love when I'm in the proud space.

I love feeling powerful and courageous. I love the energy that comes from seeing hope, opportunity and possibility.

I feel empathy for the part of me that stays in the dark space, and I want to help her.

Because I know what it's like to feel small and scared.

Because I know I can feel powerful instead.

Because I know I can help other women who feel small and scared to feel powerful too.

That's why I became a coach.

Do you ever feel small and scared?

Do you doubt your capability and feel powerless and hopeless?

Do you play small to be safe?

Are you unhappy that you feel this way?

Do you want to feel powerful?

Do you want to see the possibility and opportunity too?

Do you want some help with that? If so, let's talk. Book a consultation call with me.